Thank you. Just a few notes here. Please read if you could…
The conclusion: I’d filmed this and finished editing the video just before Christmas (aside from the inserts, which I did last night). I tried to re-edit my original clips about him… but it didn’t work, my words were out of date. I re-recorded what I could and then tried my best to edit something new. My original end card was upbeat and happy, directing you to a playlist of all the videos I’ve made at the end of the years. I felt this ending was more appropriate.
Despite my additional editing, my conclusion now feels too selfish after adding in the newer section talking about him. The original context of my original footage was different of course. These videos are self-reflection entries each year, so naturally, I diverted to myself at the end. If I could refilm, I’d, of course, convert the conclusion to include the last week. I hope this makes sense. I cannot refilm right now.
Next Year: With everything that’s currently happening, I’m going to be distant from social media into the new year. As for the channel, I’m talking a little break. I do wish to continue my channel in the new year, but when I’m ready and able to. This is a hugely distressing period for my family).
Grandad: He died on my Mum’s birthday (she’s the little girl in the last set of photos at the end), on boxing day. We knew he was declining, but did not expect him to pass so suddenly that night, we’d even been told by multiple medical professionals that day that he was doing okay (under the circumstances of course).
Grandad was an integral part of our family, the sixth member. The last few years have been a struggle at times – but he’s been a fantastic Grandad bless him… Can’t write anymore on this.
Harassment: I’ve received relentless harassment the last three years and some has been directed towards my Grandad. Multiple people have expressed wishes (even this week) that he’d die for malicious reasons… and we’ve dealt with even more that I will not repeat. I know you’re reading… you guys were not respectful in life, please be respectful in death (though saying that, you were not respectful with Vee or Phoebe). People who spend years of their lives destroying my life (my self confidence, my relationships, my ability to feel safe in my own home), sometimes wishing my death or the death of my loved ones – FOR FUN – literally have no idea how in need of help they are. If you are taking part in a harassment forum, please know that what you’re doing – destroys lives. If YOU need someone to talk to, to stop with your addiction of hurting me so you can get through your day, you can call Childline and The Samaritans. I will not be reading any longer and hope you get the help you all need. You will not harm me any longer. x
You can support my videos here:
►Art Store: https://www.etsy.com/shop/beckiejbrown
►Rebecca Jane Brown, Po Box 12179, Maldon, Essex, CM9 9ED, UK.
What Equipment do I use?
**There are no product placements within this video. I have used affiliate links in the description, but have not worked with these companies to produce this video. Thank you x